Let it be a reminder that before taking on this feat, the last time I rode a bicycle was a Huffy in grade school (except for that week in P-Town with friends, where it was my only mode of transportation).
Therefore, nerves. Excitement. Anxiety. Apprehension. They're all still present. If not, more now. It's hard to begin this ride with an empty mind. I feel somewhat over-prepared in packing but largely under-prepared in training.
As I review the route a little more closely in the days leading up, it's hard to comprehend the elevation I'll experience, the sights and landscapes I'll see, and the sense of community I'll feel once this journey begins. Since this is a ride and not a race, I've been told my many (experienced riders and such) to have fun and not think of the 545 miles as an obstacle and just take it day to day.
So much about this ride has been about journeys for me. Not only is this journey an internal and personal one, it's also a journey that has me diving into a very different reality than the one I know from my everyday life. I can honestly admit that I am proud of myself for taking on such a difficult challenge. Accomplishing it remains to be seen. :) I don't know anyone from Chicago doing this ride. I have no doubts I'll meet people along the route with Chicago roots. This made training lonely and hard over the past several months. Others I do know and that have done this ride label it as a "life-changer." While HIV and AIDS remains a label for this fundraising cause and effort, I have a feeling this may change for me during my journey. I have a feeling I will come out of this ride a different person.
With that, I welcome the waves of emotions and feelings that are to come. This journey will give me time to reflect, grow, and change.
I'm making this journey from SF to LA and hope I can demonstrate to myself that I can commit and work successfully toward my goal. Along the path, I hope to meet, bond with, and experience incredible individuals (riders, local CA townspeople, roadies) whose personal struggles and resolve to this cause can help create that change and growth. While long lines for coffee, food, and bathrooms are normal, uncomfortable weather and sleeping conditions are inevitable, I am looking forward to the humanity, the kindness, the generosity, and the openness this ride will bring out in everyone participating - just as much as I've experienced with all of you throughout these past few months. We're all in this together. Throughout this ride, I carry with me that the power of acceptance, comprehension and solidarity is within people - however expressed.
That's hope, folks.
Shoutouts
Courtney & Ryan Muldoon: Your message, along with your donation, moved me greatly. I think of you guys often, as well, and I appreciate your positive thoughts throughout this ride. Thank you so much for donating! I appreciate it greatly! xo
Jason Cardenas: my old friend! I miss you! Your donation and support means the world to me! Let's set a time this summer to hang. I would love to see you!
Esi Impraim: LA will not be the same without you! Ugh. So sorry I haven't seen you these past few months. This training, school and work have taken up a great deal. Once this ride is over, it's you and me this summer! Promise? (I'm off most of the month of July....so let's plan something)
Tessa Murphy Burke: It's been 20 years?? Thank you so much for opening up your heart and wallet to donate. How kind and generous!! You (and your family) have been an inspiration to me over the past several years. I hope you know that. The world is certainly round, my friend. xo.
Tria Tedford: or should I call you Tria Aimes, now? I can't believe you donated what you did...you just got married for crying out loud!! Either way, I'm so so grateful for your donation, our time together a few weeks ago, and for our friendship. Who knew that our crazy Jewish friend would be responsible for such a fun and everlasting friendship?? Miss you.
Eric Finnegan: Dude!!! Thank you for your EXTREMELY generous donation! I don't see enough of you...and usually when I do, it's in the most random of places. Let's try and schedule a Sunday Funday sometime soon. And thank you, again, for your support! I'm grateful for it - and our friendship!
Paul Mullen: Dr. Paul! How very thoughtful of you to donate and support!!! I can't say I'm surprised. It's been a while, too. This must change. Much appreciated! :)
LA. Friends & family at the Finish Line. Here I come.
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